Bucky probably doesn't need the help, but Steve's willing to stay awake. If it'll make him feel more comfortable. If. If, if, if. So many things he doesn't know.
Steve nods to confirm their friendship, even though Bucky doesn't need it. His throat works as he swallows. This is a difficult question. Not because the answer is complicated. It's just a 'yes', if he's being literal.
It's difficult because he wanted everything else, too, and he doesn't know if confirming that will make things worse.
Steve runs a hand down over his face, and similarly looks at the floor for a while as he gathers his thoughts. There should be some good way to say this, something eloquent that'll get the message across, leaving Bucky room to react in whatever way he needs to. There should be. There isn't.
"First, I wouldn't say 'all we were' is exactly how it worked with you, Buck," he says with painful warmth. "Your friendship is pretty valuable."
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Date: 2018-07-15 10:28 pm (UTC)Steve nods to confirm their friendship, even though Bucky doesn't need it. His throat works as he swallows. This is a difficult question. Not because the answer is complicated. It's just a 'yes', if he's being literal.
It's difficult because he wanted everything else, too, and he doesn't know if confirming that will make things worse.
Steve runs a hand down over his face, and similarly looks at the floor for a while as he gathers his thoughts. There should be some good way to say this, something eloquent that'll get the message across, leaving Bucky room to react in whatever way he needs to. There should be. There isn't.
"First, I wouldn't say 'all we were' is exactly how it worked with you, Buck," he says with painful warmth. "Your friendship is pretty valuable."
Next part. Come on, Rogers, get it out.
"I wanted more. Never found the courage to ask."